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Maybe it is just too much right now?

The aching sadness in my chest is making me feel like I’ve been hit by one of the Long Island Rail Road trains I have to take every morning. It hurts and I am not sure what is going on.
Yes, it is Monday morning and those have historically been tough on me.
Yes, there is no […]

My first test

This afternoon ended up being my first test. It was 4:55pm and someone asked me, after I had put my backpack on my shoulder and had my iPod in my hand, “Are you leaving?”
I looked over my shoulder at my backpack, “Yes. Yes, I am.”
She wanted me to do something before I left (an email […]

And so it begins…again

“I’ve never really backed down from my fears, “I explained to Gem. “I’ve faced a lot of stuff that was very scary, but my fear never stood in my way – at least not for very long.”
“I know. It is one of the things I most respect about you.”
“But this…this scares me and it’s why […]

Day Two

In my second of two days of mourning I am realizing more and more about how devastating an impact my mother’s intentional absence from my life is. Last week a friend of mine from work asked me for lunch. I thought she was joking and didn’t even respond until she said something later and I […]

My National Day of Mourning

Dear Mom,
I was walking to the train station this morning, feeling relatively good considering I was going to work, listening to my iPod. I have been on a strange mission with my iPod, let’s call it a scientific experiment. I have a playlist that excludes classical music and children’s music, but includes everything else on […]

They may have my genes, but…

It has been a bit of an adjustment, getting back to our regular reality, after being so overwhelmingly immersed in Ecuador for two weeks, but the week is ending pretty well.
The hardest part, I think, after any vacation is how much me and my Okapis miss each other – especially those first few days. After […]